July 5, 2020

Dear Virtuals:

If you happen to be that rare person (or persons) who “get” and “like” my lengthy theological treatises (like the really long one I posted in the night last night) – you might like this.

This is related to the earlier posted one. It is something I worked through to help me understand and to find the voice with which to express that magnificent tome. I wrote this when I wasn’t feeling it and when I was trying to feel it. I wasn’t feeling the voice yet, so I wrote this. It is a valuable adjunct to that tome, I think. It is like a footnote, stripped of the historical material.
I cover some of the same ground in a different way. So, here you are. I hope someone likes it. I hope someone gets it. I hope someone gets something out of it. I hope it helps.

Sincerely,

me. just me.


It is commonplace and obvious to look about at the world and see an arbitrary cruelty of needless and pointless death and suffering. It is commonplace and obvious to see a base, fundamental depravity from which we need salvation.

Every arbitrary wasted cut-short life. Even of the fetus. Every pointless miscarriage of justice. Every wrong. Every lynching. Every counter-lynching (as if that is even a thing, but I want to be inclusive). Every cruel infliction: they all pile up and accumulate – (they measure out our lives, teaspoon by teaspoon) – until they overwhelm. Certain despair ensues.

Pointless death, selfish endangerment, unruly anarchic destruction. All is out to get you. And the world can end.

It is commonplace and obvious to seek consolation.

But any bridge from this physical arbitrary chaotic depravity to something secure, just and permanent is conceptual: intellectual in nature. Every hope of salvation is ethereal in nature. And we want and need real in a world of real.

So, thus, consensus has created real. Thus Spake Zarathustra. Consensus does have the advantage of strength in numbers. And the more are certain in a like manner the more solid the security is. Or appears. Or is known. Yet, it can’t escape from its nature and its nature is intellectual. This is perhaps the primary paradox to the anti-intellectual.

O where is the solace?

Hidden in the strength of numbers is a real weakness. The lifeline of promise desperately clung to by physical beings who fancy a spiritual future is as arbitrary as it is insecure.

And this is the part that outsiders can never get. To the outsider – or ‘other’ if you will – it is commonplace and obvious to see a privileged group banning together to exclude. It is not commonplace and obvious that the very exclusion is a consequence of insecurity, a fearful terrorized shuddering at the very overwhelming arbitrariness of it all.

I’d like to explain this further. Actually I will. This comes from an earlier conceived discussion which this formerly brief exposition is but an outcrop of. So there’s *that* to look forward to!

The hatefulness of the “saved” towards the depraved looks, at face value, to be just that: hatefulness. Passive aggressive or defensive aggressive or just plain conquering aggressive hatefulness perhaps. At different times and contexts and situations and occasions all of the above, of course. But hatefulness nonetheless. And, obviously upon observation, commonplace and obvious hatefulness. Experience can be a tough-love teacher.

This outward commonplace obviously misleads. It is the root source of much deep misunderstanding. The outsider can hardly be blamed for finding the excluders hateful. That much should be obvious, but it isn’t.

How to explain how the picture changes based on perspective? How can the excluded ones see obvious hate directed at them as excluded pariahs while from the ones being sheltered from the dangers of the depraved the opposite is obviously seen? For those on the inside just know there is an absence of hate given out, only love. Yet from the precarious inside is seen a chaotic violent ungrateful mean petty hate being fed back on an unfair and unjust basis. How to explain such convoluted sentences?

Schizophrenia is one way to explain. For projection is the phenomenon at play. The insecurity of the insider must be considered and, to what degree possible, appreciated.

It is the emphasis of love and goodness that blinds the insider. They, of course, are desperate for salvation from the onslaught of depravity. Semblance of security within the physical world is only gained precariously from strength in numbers illusion and conviction of love and goodness. Yet insiders can never sit well with assurance.

Unspoken but terrorizing is the arbitrariness of it all. There is no bridge to the spiritual world. It is all only an intellectual exercise. It is only a concept. It is a salvaged and repurposed concept too, outdated and made for different times and circumstances altogether. The insider is never assured of anything. He gyrates from assurance to terrorized despair. (She gyrates likewise and is additionally terrorized as an outsider from the He within as well). In this terrorized bi-polar despair of mental anguish they project fearful hate. They never see it as hate only as love. This is pure schizophrenic projection.

WTF I can see you saying about this as you go about vigorously shaking your head. Don’t shake it off. Your reaction is just another symptom of your projection. It will only come across as hate to an observer.

What if I told you that this whole physical world doesn’t exist? The very depraved violent wasteful, evil killing hateful unjust impure suffering hypocritical succotash of a world does not even exist? Crazy, you well might say. But it is true. The physical world is an illusion. If I said that all the wrongful death, all the cruel wrongs inflicted all the hate is a playing out of something in a spiritual world in which all are included in which there is no hate no arbitrary suffering nothing wasted but everything is a crucible to spiritual perfection? The physical world that you know is mostly filled with empty space. Sure it contains plenty enough hardness to kill you if you fall from high enough. Sure there is a gravity that will cause this. Sure earthquakes and floods and disease and war and sexual depravity and the hordes of libtards are just out there to hurt you to hate you to become dependent upon you and to take your stuff – sure, all these are “real”. But this is not reality.

Spiritual reality is the only reality. There is not a bridge to it. It is here. It is now. Eternity goes on within us. Freedom from suffering and death and fear is here for the asking.

But you don’t see it. But you won’t see it. But you’ll laugh at me until you hate me because you are insecure and hate yourself. You’ll hate me with your love as long as you don’t see it. But it’s there. You can tune into it. You can tap it now. You will get there in the end anyway. It’s where you were always going. The pain and suffering and injustice and arbitrariness are all part of the karma of eternity. There is no karma of one lifetime. There is no eternal hell. You live in your very own hell of fear and doubt. What you rely on is arbitrary. You know it but might not acknowledge it. The fate you project out to the depraved is hanging over you too for your faith informs you that you are just as depraved and you know it. Your love (projected hate) is self-hate and fear of the arbitrary.

Spirituality can free you. Your choice: more of this insecure hell or freedom sped up. Yet desperation keeps you in hock to physical illusion and dogma and doctrine designed by crazy people in crazy human terms of bargain, and ransom, and redemption and general deal-making to maintain the absurd craziness which passes for security in the physical world.

I wish I could explain it better, but on the by and by you’ll see.