I have loved the love I am in love about. I am indifferent to the indifference I am indifferent about. I am happy in a centered, irreproachable, and ne’er-to-be-wavered way of centrality, repose, and serenity.

Easter Eve, lying slight struggle for sleep, my thoughts came to the faults of mine, the thousand things I do unawares that, if changed, would make a better difference for someone. Small things, really small, micro small, subatomic small, subatomic micro small. And big. More than a thousand! A myriad zillion. But then, who knows my heart? Why, I should forgive myself. And I do. Forgiven, I am free to turn the tone and focus of my prayers away from shortcomings and towards building devotion, cultivating grace, practicing gratitude. An indifference that makes all the difference comes out of this and such clawing thoughts of the past become as a movie reel, mere entertainment; entertainment to be dropped quickly and forgotten about even more quickly, for it is a very ersatz entertainment not meant to be so fruitlessly entertained.

We’ll be cleaning up the physical and psychic mess from this ‘Christian Tough Guy’ Schrödinger’s war/not war for a long, long time to come. This mess will infiltrate and pollute history itself and all the books written about the history of now, if and when any such are written with any semblance of clear sight ever again.

The result of this great undertaking of a cleanup effort resulting from this Schrödinger’s war/not war should put paid to any idea of the utility or efficacy of alternate reality as built from scratch (on the shoulders of giant bigots) by psychotic thinking.

If not, it at least should shine the light of clarity on the severe kinetic destruction inherent in any Christian thinking or ideology that strays from the Beatitudes in the least.

In my opinion, and this is solely my own personal opinion, any Christian thinking or ideology that strays from the Beatitudes in the least is beyond useless and represents a clear and unmistakable manifestation of spiritual desertification. In my opinion any Christian thinking or ideology that strays from the Beatitudes in the least is a demented twisted distortion-projecting rear-view mirror in which the end times/apocalypse ─ (which is really the kingdom of heaven, which is really cosmically now) ─ appear both much closer and much further than they really are. Moreover, in my opinion, any Christian thinking or ideology that strays from the Beatitudes in the least is fear-based and self-serving to an unworkable and unhelpful degree, rendered mendacious, malicious, misanthropic and, of course, misogynistic even in the best of intentions.

My path yearned for purpose and longed for clearance.

Misunderstanding the obstacles and not knowing of the subtleties: quietude, gratitude cultivation, recognition awareness, discipline.

For the path and the obstacles are one. The obstacles are the path in a fundamental integral way.

It is destiny to give up yearning and longing. Awakened quietude begets everlasting joy!

Half of what I say is meaningless

I seem to say it not to reach you

Dear fellow sojourners [whether you know it or not]:

Please practice gratitude. Things will/could get immediately better for all of us if and when you do!

Love

Hamesha Aur Har Jagah

Part ONE

There are three things that keep hell alive and hanging around the earth.

They are transient, the stuff of nothingness, less substantial than air.

They pass through a mind, transient and immaterial.

They never stop. They go and new ones come along. New ones just like the old ones. Countless times of recurrence they come. This visitation happens over and over and over again.

Their nature is to pass away and to exist only transiently in thought of the mind.

If and when we let them pass, they are nothing. But their nothingness is loneliness. Our lonely inner selves will cling to them in desperate attempt to give substance and meaning to the emptiness of the material existence. As we cling, we long for the substance of meaning. We make them real. Or seemingly so. They are “our” facts. We make them real. Made in the ‘image’ of the Creator we create reality. What comes around goes around.

The things three are desire and anger and ignorance.

We should help them along. We should actively brush them by. They are unreal and they keep us unreal and stuck. As I said before they keep hell alive.

The pathetic tragedy about the whole thing is that it is in their nature to pass by as the transient nothing of nothingness that they truly are. It is we who give them import and impact.

But in the bigger picture even this hell, even this suffering, even this bondage is transient itself as are we.

Who can see this?

Part TWO

The cure for loneliness is not found with anything material in the material world.

(This includes, of course, living beings like people. [No matter what your persuasion regarding people] This includes the acts of humans. This includes achievements. This includes anything a human can create. This includes holy name-dropping and holy book-quoting).

To find the real cure, think spiritually. Think of energetic moving energy of cosmic connectivity, the eternal existence of all. Unseen and unseeable. Maybe this latter part is so.

That is either a clue to the secret of life or it is the complete answer.

Only you decide.

*And it’s not too late. You have lifetimes more uncountable than grains of sand on the beaches and bottoms of the oceans of the world. You have lifetimes more uncountable than the stars in the sky. The destiny of creation will be manifest, no matter what level or duration of resistance is offered. No matter what crimes are committed (or gotten away with). No one is capable of losing it, much less of selling it. It is the destiny of creation.

It is not my job to tell you how to reach this manifestation. I am only here to help you try. And to let you see the fallacy in dogma of whatever type. You may think I’m an agitator. But you may plead upon me what you will, including, but not limited to, the second. Your one-life and eternal judgment doctrine and dogma will never apply except as a hell that you cling to in your mind. And even that, no matter how stubbornly persistent, no matter how many demerits it may come to cause, is transient. But don’t mind me. I’m giving away the secrets.

Part THREE

In the cosmic gathering place where we are all one – and where no one is; and while we are also here and not there (and are there!) – it is impossible to be lonely.

Part FOUR

& contentment can certainly be felt here!

The kingdom of heaven, the thousand laws, will manifest first through love and then through evolution.

I have watched, subsequently, in full and in real-time partially, the “Kung Fu” series. It is an absolute favorite of mine.

My favorite scene, I’m pretty sure and convinced, happens when Quai Chan Caine, a native American, and a local cowpoke are at an impasse. Quai Chan Caine, as usual, is trying to help. The local explains in exasperation the impossibility of the situation and the unsolveability [sic] of the problem as if it is obvious: a white man trying to reason with a savage, saying something like “you see the situation here?”. Quai Chan Caine, retorts that “I see three men”.

My friends, this is the crux of it. I’ve recently had a couple of reminders in my literary absorptions of the sharpness of the assumption of superiority – hence the axiomatic assumption of inherent inferiority of someone else relative to this assumed superiority. This is the bane and the weakness of us humans and the seeds of the downfall of our world. This is the problem. And if you buy into it to any degree you are the problem.

For friends, no matter how you slice it — in your set binomial ways: man/woman, white/black, culturally advanced and accomplished/barbarian, saved/forsaken — it is wrong. There is no one human superior to another in any way at all. There are no inferiors to you or me or to anyone else. Period.

If you can’t see this and actually try to do something about it, that’s the end. We can’t be friends. We can’t truly communicate, at least as humans. As the reality of our cosmic spirituality we are one as are “they”.

And if you can’t see what’s obviously in your face, that nationalism, christian nationalism, racism, etc and anon are steeped in everything T****, his enablers, his cohorts, his supporters say and do, then you can’t really be helped in this lifetime. The karma will all play out over cosmic God time, so I’m not concerned or worried. We are all on the journey to the same destiny of Creation. It’s just in this lifetime, here on earth that I can’t help you.

I oppose you even while I shower you in the light of Christ love.

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And when I was talking earlier about inherent racism being the scourge of humankind, I didn’t mean the weak-willed, self-serving, denial kind of respect of others along the lines of “I’m not racist because I don’t see color” or “they’re the racists”.

No! I’m talking extreme.

We must look upon every human being that we encounter as completely equal. COMPLETELY! No strings. No conditions. Every woman too, is on equal standing, you men and you perverted and misguided women who support such men. If you can’t do that, you are not my friend.

I’m talking seriously about every single person you meet: every person of African descent, every muslim, every Indian, every other kind of Indian, (redskin if you will T****), every hindu, every Chinese, every buddhist. No exceptions. Completely equal to you, yet in actuality, more prone and likely to being superior to you are your fellow men and women. Period. No exceptions. This is how black lives really matter.

If this kind of respect existed many things of noble high-minded ideal would actually work: free trade and democracy for two. When this kind of equality doesn’t exist. all is broken and unworkable.

And know this: I say ‘broken’ and ‘unworkable’ because I mean broken and unworkable. For while a system of racism doesn’t merely require the attitude and assumption of supremacy by whites — and racism is indeed a system and not a proclivity; not a disliking, or a hating with or without an intent to harm where harm is possible; — but a system based on at least the assumption and ‘knowledge’ of the reality that there are inferiors. The “inferiors” in this case don’t ever get a fair shake no matter what steps are made to rectify the system of insanity. As long as there are inferiors, the inferiors get, even with the best wishes and intentions of the (even if default) supremacists, the short end of the stick and come out losers in any and all social interactions where this blatant and soreful lack of true respect resides. “They” are forever condemned by conservative convention to be mired as second or third class. That is racism. (Not the fact that blacks don’t like or tolerate you).

If you get what I’m saying and live your life that way and sincerely try to do something about it, you are my cohort and friend. Of course, you would immediately discard T**** and his Epstein listers. In any free and fair election, in a world of true respect, T**** would lose 100% to 0%, even against a democrat!

That, my friends, is what it takes to be my earthly friend. If not, you aren’t. No matter HOW closely related to me you might be.

But, don’t worry, this is only in the ersatz physical form. In cosmic radiant reality we are already on equal footing, all love and respect.

A thought just occurred to me: I’m getting closer to just beginning to seriously consider the concept of non-attachment, the knowing that nothing material is mine, the knowing that no country is my country. I am nothing special. I am a nowhere man living in his nowhere land. This is part of a multi-life journey to you-don’t-know-where. I am only centered, hence unswayable. In the center is deep peace.

I only come across as arrogant and self-satisfied about my devotion (and my ‘special’ knowledge) from your sensitive perception’s perspective. You are running away from non-attachment at such a desperate helter-skelter rate, clinging to the ownership and protection of your property, obsessed with the free-loaders and the supposed dependency encouragement from both sides of the equation, deluded in the assumed superiority of your country through the audacity of the patriot people who people it. But audacity is fine, right, as long as it’s in your favor? Strength in numbers? You are convinced that your hand is on the tiller of faith. You are constantly gyrating under this illusion of security. Attainment of any presumed destination is a false delusion, a willing walk into a selfish trap.

Yet, many lifetimes from now, no matter how hard or steadfast is your clinging to the wild and swiftly circulating gyrations, the journey is destined to course-correct to center and the ultimate manifest destination is you-don’t-know-where. You will sense the vast chasm of difference of the center from the periphery and we will meet again like a twain that has not at any time been twain.

When you know where like I already know where we will meet in such accord. Where is the kingdom of heaven. It is at hand. A centered soul once tried to teach you all this.