I just came to the realization that what I’ve been attempting in my spiritual quest is that I become anal amnemonic about my life here on earth.

I am quite a ways down the journey and I am quite an adept (but not in a braggadocio manner – that would be spiritually self-defeating).

In retrospect I can certainly recognize that once I learned to do it freely out and about in the world — (in the provided sanctuary spaces and not literally in the agorá, of course) — I had turned a corner to recovery and was a balanced entity entirely opposite and different (in an extremely good way!) to the person I was before,

In fact it is literally a pleasure now and I so look in all positive anticipation for each moment of now that constitutes a so-called ‘future’!

I had some thoughts this afternoon that crisply gave answer to something spiritual. I thought to post it. However, like all I share, I felt it would be misunderstood.

Hence, my crisp, poignant thoughts take the essay form and certain ones who could benefit might well not follow.

This is a story-line of my life and I don’t necessarily feel bad about it. Therefore I will post as I feel needed and let chips fall and bygones be bygone far away. My original thoughts will bury themselves somewhere in the body of this “essay” which leads and follows and I can only give clues for you to identify them ahead of time: it is based on a common stupid question and the typical stock answer. You who have intelligence can figure this out for yourself.

I did think on this crisp idea more at the time and after the time, right away, and, of course, I mentally created some more needed additions. Then, I was stricken with the compulsive need to explain myself, which is what will follow this and precede that. Time elapsed too, and time changed even the course of the explanation itself.

You see, I have this reputation as a cynic – a sarcastic cynic if you will. There are people who seem troubled by my supposed cynicism, especially as it pertains to matters of faith. I would like this record corrected, if possible.

For I am the opposite of cynical. I am of a very high vibrational cosmic spiritual level and I am always taking measures to transcend the common material human essence some call “existence”, however feelings-based and chemically-constituted and chemically-reacted that physical/material “real world” may be. Spirituality and spiritual development are very, very important to me. This is no cynical ploy. Helping others is also a key part of my nature. To put it short: I care. To put it lengthier shorter: I am what I am.

So, some would say – and maybe not say – but I can hear the silence say – that if I’m so spiritually “evolved” and high-vibrational (whatever that means) why do I feel and act so superior? Why am I so dismissive? Why am I so preachy? Why am I so sarcastic? Why am I so cynical? Why am I so mean? (Especially to nice people)?

And yes, I understand that this “dialogue” is largely in my imagination. I am aware how highly sensitive I am. But, I tell you verily, I am very adept at picking up the unsaid things. Occasionally these things come back as sharp “helpful” criticism from “nice” people. Occasionally you can actually see the “advice” that underlies the unsaid. I was raised in a very “helpful” and “nice” community environment, you see. It’s in my training, my very ‘heritage’, to pick up on the unsaid – for my own “wellbeing” and for my own “good”. Believe it or not. Or else don’t believe me.So I can only say in response or in imagined response that I am open. I am spiritual. I like openness. I like spirituality.

I’m not out to create minions. I don’t want to tell anyone what to think. I’m not out to “save” you. I do want people to cast off the narrow-minded physical-world littleness of binding heaven by binding so tightly things on earth. I do want general (and spiritual) openness to a looser freer cosmic earnestness to prevail. I am keen on the cosmic Realm of Wisdom/Kingdom of Heaven! I believe it’s the eventual destiny – over the very long unfathomable term – of creation. I could just have this all for myself and keep it all to myself and think “screw everyone”, but this will be cynical. I’d rather just be myself, share myself, and promote open spirituality and point out the narrow-minded hurtful stuff when and where I see it. If that’s too political for you to take then I’m very sorry for your aching head but like you heard me said I’m not guilty. (That last 16-word bit being a direct George Harrison song reference).

This brings me [unexpectedly, for I was free-lancing again!] to what I originally wanted to say.

I need people to understand my views on religion because I think they are grossly misunderstood (I was thinking just before the launch hour).

It’s simple to understand. It goes like this:
To me religion is one stupid question asked over and over again. It is one stock answer that is even stupider than the stupid question ever was.

I’m seen how this has been institutionalized. I recognize the dark power involved. You are free to see the opposite.

The question: “Why is there evil?”The answer: “Free will.”

This gets you nowhere spiritual. This makes you dependent. This keeps you down. That’s how I understand it. And the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again (for thousands of years, in this case) and expecting a different result.

That’s what I think about religion.

And then topping this off and adding further unfathomability is to explain the spiritual in human material form so that “people” can “understand”. Institutions formed by committee explain the freely given (good news!) as a “bargain” a materialistic exchange in very existential human terms “explained” for “understanding” purposes like some sort of Sicilian exchange. (Bad news for most. Good news for the ‘insiders’ only). And people buy this hook, line, and sinkhole. That only makes it worse. What’s the point, then, of transcending the material? Why would Jesus ever, then, say something like “do not love the world or anything in the world”? These explanations are so much “of the world and in the world.” These explanations should not be loved much less bought into. But this is what ended up being loved by hurtful people who wrest the mantle of “good” from earnest spiritual ones. Hoodwink, bamboozle and sinker. Religion is a Catch-22. Religion is cynical. Religion is hurtful. Religion excludes. Religion creates “heretics” (i.e. the earnestly spiritual). Many mystics have been killed as heretics. I’m a mystic too. You don’t have to believe me and if you plead the 2nd on me and kill me it won’t mean a thing and it won’t help advance spirituality by an iota.

P.S. Love is the answer and you know that for sure.

Everybody wants something. I have always wanted to want independently, free and clear of others’ unreasonable expectations and judgmental perceptions. On top of this I have wished for certain wants to be reciprocated unconditionally. But none of that is possible. Hence I have been happiest with patiently developed experience in the theory and practice of transcending wants. I am not in want of happiness! That is riches in itself, in case I ever wanted to be rich.

To do that which we are all on the path (of no escape) to doing that which we must and will do – no matter what resistance is put forth or expended – is as simple as it it inevitable.

There is no one way. The ways are varied and beyond our ability to label or to track. There is a way that is different and unique for each individual as there is unique experiential “reality” that belongs to each.

More importantly, there is only this one way.

Given that, the instructions are simple. It is a two-step plan:

1. Seek
2. Ask

You could just as well interrogate a baby under threat of subpoena

In the minutes following aftermath of birth, placenta still fresh

To get to the bottom of what he feels and experiences

In that first glorious intimate encounter with his mother;

Such is the joy in meditation: utterly unspeakable, non-amenable to articulation, Beyond understanding.

It can seem that it takes a lot of investment in time to live life right,

Until one learns to experience the now

You may think that there are some, perhaps many, in this ‘reality’ of life, who are not to be trusted, who will betray you, like Iagos of the imago or like Judas. But I tell you verily, that absolutely everything (and every one) in this physical world is created and bound to betray you eventually. This includes all you think prestigious, pleasurable, enjoyable, reliable or good. This includes (especially) that which you are proud of and it certainly includes that which you consider steady or steadfast and rely upon, however intimately, or however much in an impersonal or taken-for-granted way, known and acknowledged or hidden/denied/unawares and/or unknown, deliberate or accidental or coincidental.

Furthermore, it is my observation and experience that indicates and/or ‘tells’ me that one can’t be at all spiritual until such point as one gets this and approaches the physical world in such a fitting manner: not ‘hating’ mind you, for it is impossible to turn one’s back on everything and everyone in the physical world, but with loving: by ceasing to make discrimination and distinction and with coming to the realization that all the physical world (and all “in” the physical world) is an eventual betrayal and a design – a feature not a bug, so to speak – a sort of cosmic entrapment.
In this context, why not think of that whole ‘what is loosed, what is bound’ concept. There is deep spiritual wisdom being taught right before your eyes.

The future is happy. If you can accept it now. To be a choice.

I was speculating about evolution this morning. But it was an expanded idea of evolution. It was more a vague notion of an idea that involves and encompasses spirituality. One that goes beyond the bonds and bounds we usually accept as “reality”. Think on this a bit: think on the vast expanse of space. Think on the countless other planets and other life forms there are out there. Add a spiritual dimension to this. Let your mind be blown. (Not literally. Not ‘blow me mind down, Olive’). Just let your mind be open and accept the parlance of the hippie and feel the essence of the sentiment of the expression. Open up! Lighten up, Francis!

Okay. I grant that all that is dreamy and hyperbole perhaps. But there are indeed countless inhabitable worlds out there.

Likewise when one allows oneself to think of spirituality in light of materialism. We can know to understand spirituality as non-material energy. What we consider reality and totality (physical ‘reality’) might well then be very limited .

Put the two together, one inhabitable earth, one life of material “reality” and you get institutions and understandings and religions and science that are limited and crippled. Spiritual reality explodes these limitations to meaninglessness. There are a multitude of lifeforms out there. There is an obliteration of time and space correlation as we think we know it. Evolution is going on in the expanded spiritual unlimited space and time context. It is an evolution that works towards a perfection and a beauty that is the Realm of Wisdom/Kingdom of Heaven. It is going on all around us. It is within us without us. It is the unseen juxtaposed on the seen and it is so transcendental and beyond as to be also beyond understanding and knowledge.

The evolution I’m speculating about is an evolution that is impossibly beyond our understanding of evolution as it pertains to material earth and it is impossibly beyond our “religion” and the faith doctrinally attached to that.
It sounds crazy, all this talk about material earth but maybe it might sound less crazy if I put it another way. We are not material beings on a material earth at all but we are energy. We are spiritual beings of non-material non-matter who take up material life forms temporarily in context of the physical being in the particular place the spiritual non-material non-matter being is temporarily housed. Do I begin to make sense yet?

Consider what we think of as religion. It only pertains to this earth, not to a spiritual span of unlimited possibility on-going newness. Consider also life. We are convinced there is only one, with final judgment to determine the status of an eternal afterlife. In such a context all ideas such as evolution, karma, justice, value of life and everything else are an absurd meaningless unworkable joke. What we are trained to consider as a universal religious truth within the predominant religion featuring a monotheistic universal God only applies to an insignificant spec. Literally.

And to think that this currently predominant religion which is really within even this impossibly limited framework truly is only a localized set of worship and doctrinal [laws] applicable to a smallish group of hardscrabble middle eastern tribes, twelve in number, who are loosely cohesively ordered and more than fairly incestual in a very clannish sort of way. Somehow this defensive grouping forged in an atmosphere of threat and existential danger infused itself with Indian spiritual concepts from the wilderness north of Rishikesh and transformed itself into a tightly-cohesive empire-threatened and persecuted organized grouping which later become the transforming adaptation of orthodox choice to a murderous Imperial Emperor and his murder-mongering and blood-thirsty mother. This novice religion became the persecutor itself and developed its doctrinal ideas from a position of strength for years and years, effectively shaming and killing out any true open spirituality in the course of gaining all the traction of power and acceptability of doctrinal law. It is the imperial empire.

Then there’s what earth-bound material-bound “reality” doctrine does. It demands conformity. It dedicates to power/(righteousness) preservation and it attempts to squelch out and snuff out all who can see the infinite beyond, who can know that existence itself is timeless and formless, that we “beings” are energy. It owns the law and it owns the definition of crazy. (And I know I am crazy to even attempt to ‘educate’ about it).

Enough of the one-world, material-world “religion”. The idea of one life is just as absurd. Evolution in this context is the developmental process that merely passes traits on from a dying generation to a future living generation. It passes on, of course, the will to life, in the form of fittest life survival and legacy. Religion in such a pairing of contexts and science in such a pairing of contexts can seem to be at odds relating to a fight between intolerant ignorance and fear versus enlightened illumination and conquest of fear. But, then again, they can be in concert when it comes to the fear and significance afforded to death. Temporal life/eternal death fear is debilitating and drives religion and the fear of death. The fear of the unknown and of finality drives concepts of evolution in striving to instill traits that live on despite the harsh reality of death.

Everything bound within these limited constraints is tainted: the concept of justice, the concept of karma (which in this context is an absurd joke), the purpose of evolution. Positive thinking in this context is a cheap scam aimed at cheating death through delusion of skirting, denying, and eluding fear. The best that can be achieved is an epicurean sophistry that convinces one that one is living the well-lived life in contrast to the other best alternative: fear-based depravity-dripped puritanism with eyes on the prize convinced of the prize yet all the while with footing so tenuous as to constitute a severely mentally-ill dysfunctional living doubt constantly denied with doctrinal self-help pep talks. No wonder there is so much mistrust in our post-modern existence.

The first thing, then, in an expanded spiritual experience of the vast unlimited unseen, is to transcend this limited psychotic barbaric yalp of fear. It’s best, probably, to start with overcoming the fear of death. When the one-world, one-life doctrinal trap is transcended the first thing to go is that irrational fear of what death is. Death in context of unlimited lifetimes in unlimited space within an unlimited expanse of life-forms in unconstrained time-space into indiscernible uncountable spiritual realms becomes something to be embraced and not at all feared. Fear of what death really is does not compute. Struggles to maintain life as if it is the only life (not only that we get but the very only on which exists) are absurd jokes. When we can understand true death then in a healthy way we can accept it as the positive that it truly is.

Now, don’t get me wrong. Just knowing the true natural not-to-be feared positive nature of death doesn’t mean go on about life so unworried about death that one courts death. No! It is not this at all! Life is meant to be lived preciously and preserved with all we’ve got even if we develop (or ‘evolve’) to a point where there is absolutely zero fear of death at all. This preservation of precious life is in accord with the way we by default consider evolution anyway: as an endless fight for survival and for fitness to survive, even if it only means passing on our traits to the next living generation.

And I maintain stubbornly that this view of an unfeared death is indeed healthy. The two friends that I know, the one who pled the second on his troubled life and gunned himself down and the other one who drank himself to death, neither were without fear of death. I know this well, knowing them. Neither would I say by any stretch, either, that either one of them had a “healthy” approach to death (or life, for that matter). And without naming names, I can say that I personally know quite a few “Christians” who have driven themselves into a crazed fear of debilitating dysfunction in proportional relation to the certainty that they have been “saved” by the Only One who can redeem them from this eternal death-grip.

But, let’s take this concept of a healthy positive embracement of death sans fear. Let’s apply it to the entire earth. For, since we are all of spiritual non-material essence who can take physical life form anywhere in a vast and infinitely varied universe, what do we need a particular material earth for? Absolutely nothing, HUH! So it’s absurdly and extraordinarily irrational, then, to fear the end times. And it might be pointless to be as hyper-concerned we are with “saving” the earth or preserving the earth. Except that, no. Even knowing that death is much more natural and positive then we heretofore have afforded it and therefore not at all worthy of fear, still it is a right and fitting thing to preserve. We must give every attention to preserving the earth as we routinely and habitually do to preserve the lives of ourselves and all other loved ones.

But, if the world ends, it is not the inane insane fear-based thing of spectacular earth-bound religion’s melodramatic culmination. It is no big deal and might well be a step in the process of time-space obliterate spiritual evolution of the vast unlimited universe.

Most people would, if they allowed themselves to free-think, think of evolution in this spiritual sense as a development whereby the inhabitants of the earth all reached a positive state of development of the spirit as to have outgrown the earth (perhaps in numbers of ‘critical mass’) and then were able to leave a dead planet to move on to a higher realm. When I look around this maya physical earth, though, I see something entirely different. I see a vast number of a majority of crass, materialistic, fear-mongering physical beings of sensational focus. Namely, thinking in terms of chakras, I see a whole lot of red-chakra (physically depraved), yellow chakra (physical fighters and bullies), green chakra (feelings-based and emotional) and even blue chakra (intellectually driven) beings. I see and encounter another significantly smaller in terms of number but steadily growing roster of spiritually inclined beings reaching higher and higher levels of transcendent energy vibrations.

I observe and experience a world in which communication across these lines is nigh impossible. The higher the spiritual develop the more difficult it becomes not only to reach the chakra-bound but to even exchange anything resembling ideas or understanding at all. These “reality”-based materialists seem to have taken a Mitch McConnellesque tack of reflexively opposing and obstructing and severely blocking any attempt, however feeble, to achieve anything remotely “bi-partisan.”

The way I see evolution vis a vis the death of the earth going, within the context of what I have observed, is more like this: a “critical mass” of evolved spiritual beings reach the higher unseen levels of spiritual development. They become more and more cut off from an ignorance-loving fear-mongering materialist-depending crass mass of humanity. The evolved reach that spiritual energy “critical mass” and move on elsewhere to some other existence in the vast unlimited universe, leaving the crass mass of humanity to their own devices. No one who cares to even attempt to help this crass mass of humanity move any further along the spiritual evolution development remains. The crass mass of humanity somehow or other (and there are many such ‘doomsday’ scenarios) manage to render the earth inhabitable. The earth ends with a wimper and not a bang, but maybe a nuclear bang. It could all end just like a beach house come down. Spiritual evolution continues on pretty much as ever. [Same as it ever was] [Water flowing underground].

And, lest anyone take this above speculation to be an arrogant assertion that “I am better than you”, well no. Realize that absolutely every being, however seemingly depraved, is on the path. For we are all on the path to the Realm of Wisdom/Kingdom of Heaven. We are destined to the destiny of creation, let Hercules himself try as he may to derail this. You do not meet any one under any condition who is not “on the path”. As Jesus once put it, “very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him”

随时随地

This is a voluntary disclaimer. I make it because I am about to post some recent speculation. The process of the ‘bottling’ of this particular pensive cola bid me cause to pause and to realize (in plain sight) that a certain disclaimer is warranted.

Yes, I am 随时随地. I realize this and I am certainly cognizant of it. However, any thoughts or ‘information’ I share under that identity and/or the Hindi version of same does not in any way stake any claim in authority or, if it comes down to that, even to verity. It is not of the ‘source’ though it indeed is highly influenced by the spiritual realms, i.e. the “Realm of Wisdom/Kingdom of Heaven”. It is certainly in intimate conversation with the source. Indeed, to be a bit clearer, it is the articulation between me and 随时随地 within and without the source that is being ‘reported’ in this manner.

Now, this may well be troublesome to some of you. It may seem highly arrogant on my part and it can easily be taken as presumptuous to the point of delusion. There is little or not much that I can do about your ‘perceptions’. And, yes, I’ve been told (by John Key and others) that perception is reality. I know this! Go on, then, and consider me self-centered and puffed up with all undo importance. I know the reality. I know better. Like Langston Hughes’ negro knows rivers, I do know humility. I certainly do interact with the spiritual world yet I do very much understand that my physical, maya-contained brain and monkeyish [sic] thought-system and patterns do interfere with the articulation of anything authoritative. I also understand what I thus say to be in the most part inarticulable [sic]. It is in a keen sense of knowing I don’t speak for any source and that I don’t know that I offer this very important disclaimer.

In a like vein, along these same areas of thought, fluctuations in my frequency of spiritual communications might seem to indicate a waning lull or a period of despair or even depression. Conversely, when I am posting frequently and profusely on spiritual matters it may seem that I am on a roll, feeling irie (as the Rastafarians say). I maintain that reality is actually pretty much opposite of this. The times when I maintain silence and don’t reach out with spiritual posts are actually those times when I am getting it right and getting the connection and articulation with the Realm of Wisdom/Kingdom of Heaven. And the flow is so much more direct. I am at my best when I have nothing to say. I am at my strongest when I don’t feel compelled to have others more ‘enlightened’ with information. It just is. It is now. It is true nowness [sic] of now! All is in process. When I share more spiritual information it is because I’m not ‘getting it’ as much or as readily anymore. It is when my intellect is too active and I am speculating (perhaps too much) and I have certain longings to increase the understanding in the physical earth-world and to reach out with communications.

So, when you want to catch me when my spiritual mojo is not working (though I don’t have the slightest why you would want to) you would catch me at a time when 随时随地 is more actively communicating. Well, that’s that.

For some of you, just my saying (or attempting to say) all of this will be enough to irk you over the edge. It is proof again of my craziness and of my special arrogant high conception of myself. Some would say “keep it coming”. Some would say “shut it down”. Some would rather I keep to political subjects, as annoying and as patronizing and as inflammatory as that can be. Others would just have me be funny (in a non-political way) or stick to sharing Saints’ information and occasional pictures. But, truly, none of that means anything to me. I am on a certain journey as we all are on that same journey in radically different and mutually incommunicative ways. There are so many ways in which we can’t travel together, can’t be on the same energy level or wavelength or whatever, but we are all going somewhere nonetheless. (And we won’t get there soon). I will certainly keep at it. I will certainly have these “moods” when feeling human things and when bound in my maya intellectual restrictions and limitations. I will invariably feel a compulsion to “lead” and to illuminate and what-not. It can’t be helped. But, let it be known, (hence this disclaimer): I make no claim to authority or even to accurately imparting correct (or even useful) information. I simply try my best. Someday, perhaps, some good day, some fine sunny day, when it all comes together, I will cease to communicate in this manner.

Someday the true 随时随地 and/or Hindi version of same, will achieve a different status and be given a different role by the Realm of Wisdom/Kingdom of Heaven. At that time the communications will take on a decidedly and distinctly knowable and known different format and forum. You are free and encouraged to seek out 随时随地 and/or Hindi version of same at that infinite moment in time.

Meanwhile, keep in mind this disclaimer and take what is posted with the stamp of 随时随地 as the earth-bound and limited intellectual speculation that it is.