Something random and senseless that can readily be negatively taken as a knock, a blow, a setback, a pointless waste, etc.; to immediately see it as the gift that it is sans the entanglement of attempting to “figure it out”: to use it immediately to improve and instill something positive in one’s character.

“Have I ever been happy?” I casually asked myself just now

“Not in the way that you are now” came an answer from an awakened divine connection of me.

vichaar bhatakate hain; ek melaboks mein bechain hava

Displays of strength, all martial and manly, forceful and controlling, are merely ruses of posture and show. True quiet and peaceful spiritual strength is unbounded and compares to this ersatz masculine ruse like a universe compares to a grain of sand.

On matters of spirituality you may well question my authority. On matters political you may well discredit, discount and deny and/or stupify my *opinion*. That is all as it should be and I readily invite it.

No one has the objective grip on reality. That’s just reality. What we know and what we think we know as reality differs (sometimes fundamentally) from each perspective. And, moreover, the reality of the physical world is a product of the broken, dysfunctional dreams and the ugly consequences of perceived suffering of a critical mass of multitude.

I do not expect nor demand anyone adhere to my spiritual disciplines or believe a thing I believe.

By a reasonable facsimile of a token, though, no amount of your coercion, shaming, tough love, “principle” — or whatever it is you want to call it — can ever make me ‘do’ or ‘believe’ by “your” “book”.

You can never make me fear your hell, even if you are totally projecting your “reality” of hell fear fire fear on to me, no matter how stubbornly you deny it all.

You will live alone in hell. I am not your company.

I don’t know what to do or when to do it and procrastinate is my default mode. I started “life” out quite happily, got small-town experientially soured, yet in the matter of course of mattering the matter course I know to be happy every now. And how. I am.

It is what I think; nothing is what I think

Blessings unlimited! Love abounding! Our true purpose: recognition. Our destiny: appreciation.

Like work, everything is cut out for me. I’ve already been granted immeasurable abundance! And I know this more and more.

You Netflix® denizens! Tonight, in one sitting, I just watched “Yes, God, Yes” followed hard immediately by “St. Vincent”. Both are touching, moving, and inspiring. Especially in that order of proximity. In that particular order on this particular night in this particular light they hit me like the stars aligned in epiphany! The big little home-screen experience reinforced absolutely everything I know and love about spirituality and have ever known and loved, ever since my pre-language time when I so enjoyed the trips in and out of the discernable and memorable purple light.

They are pertinent too, in justifying the religious box that I know I am in. If you would like the definition of the particular religious (and not spiritual) box I find myself in, I will explain. It is vehemently anti right-wing-conservative-political-“Christian”. I am a Jewish follower of Christ and a Gnostic acolyte of meditation and a committed zen Buddhist. If I must choose only one ‘religion’, I willingly choose exactly such a three-in-one. Most importantly I don’t ask, require, or recruit anyone to choose what I choose or to be what I aspire to be. If you don’t like any of this please refer to my recent post about happiness and about those who live in hell and where they can simply go. I’m not asking anything extraordinary of any of you because I do know how short a trip it actually is!

Love,

tmr